I don’t know if it was the introvert in me or the innermost struggle to humility that makes me not want to be recognized as part of the worship ministry, every time I’m interacting with people within our church. I guess it’s the fact that I’ve always wanted genuine conversations, without any label. Yes, I can lead worship, but I’m no different from anyone else. I’m nowhere near the “holy”assumption on people who stand on stage. Although that is my goal.
I recently joined a small group and felt so at ease especially since the new members didn’t recognize me. It also happened when I attended a leader’s meeting the following week. On both scenarios, they asked for my name and why they haven’t seen me around. Oh, believe me, that felt wonderful. Clean slate. I get excited with conversations with these new friends. But then again, my delight was short lived. As soon as I started sharing how I’ve been in snippets, they started to recognize me.
“Oh! now I remember you! You’re the one who lead worship! I remember you sharing how you got sick. That’s you.” In the other scenario, my seat mate goes…
“Oh yeah! You’re the one in the worship team! I remember now because you mentioned about the pilgrimage in Panama”
Praise God for those moments when they forgot my face but not my message.
I learned that it’s okay for people to recognize me. But I have to make sure that how I live my life screams louder than my credentials, or what look and say.
When we live for Christ, we know that there is something bigger than ourselves. We should become so invisible so people can see more of Him and less of us.
Leaving you all with this amazing song from Casting Crowns:
Only Jesus! << watch this 🙂
*A Servant’s Diary*